17 January 2011

On Wood Glen Pond :: January

This begins my modest commitment to revisit this space.  I will make no promises that it will be daily, or even weekly.  Today I wish to share one bit about our new life here which I cannot be more thankful for.

When we first visited the idea of moving back to my hometown, we knew we wanted to live by one of the many lakes.  We felt that if we couldn't be near the mountains, we should at least live in a place that affords our children some modicum of natural presence.  I personally couldn't tolerate moving into a bland beige neighborhood with treeless expanses of bluegrass lawns, broken only by fences and asphalt.  Fortunately there are several lakes to choose from here, each community with its own culture and amenities.

We settled on a lake community based on its proximity to the city, closer access to the airport, and the convenience of being at the midpoint between the grandparents' homes.  Once that decision was made, we spent hours picking over the MLS listings, weighing and considering all the characteristics of the homes and the streets and the fingers of the lake. We drove out and spent a few days with our realtor touring houses.  Many of them were immediately off the list for one reason or another. Our list of requirements included a private office for Jesse, since he works at home when he's not traveling. We hoped that his office could be in a walk-out basement.  We sought a house that would have room for me to have a studio of my own, which I have not had since Zoe was born. Also needed was a ground-level master bedroom, in the event that my MS progresses to the point of me being unable to easily take the stairs.

The house which came to be ours met these requirements. It was not a house in which I instantly felt at home, nor did I even *like* it much, at first. But the location of the home wooed me with its possibility. Standing outside on the soft spring grass, surrounded by the lovely blossoms of redbud trees, I had the sense that we were not living in the suburbs, but rather in some magical Thoreauvian wilderness. The treed land behind our home slopes down to the edge of a small pond, and then again to the shore of the lake where we keep our little rowboat. In the summertime, nearly all the homes which encircle this small valley are obscured by trees. I felt then, as I do now, that the surrounding landscape would enable us to remain as anchored to nature as we were in Colorado. In anticipation of a great loneliness for the mountains, I wished to find an ideal space of green.



For now, our pond (for I have come to think of it as ours) is covered in a thick coat of ice and snow.  The land around is also muted thus, surrounded by mostly barren trees and bereft of the busy wildlife community we came to know over the summer.  Birds still come daily to chatter at our feeder, leaving tiny imprints in the snow along the porch railing. The sloping hills have proven perfect for sledding, and a gathering place for the neighborhood children.



This house has been slow to charm me.  Pulling up worn carpet, applying many fresh coats of paint, I am beginning to see all the potential it offers.  There are some moments when it even feels like home.  But my spirits are always, always lifted when I look out the kitchen windows into the magical world beyond. This year I look forward to making this house our home, embraced and grounded by the landscape around us, on Wood Glen Pond.

29 August 2010

New Beginnings

This week closes the second month that we have lived in Missouri.  I suppose it has not been that different from most summers; I look back and wonder where the time has gone.  It is hard to reconcile the feeling that we have not been here nearly long enough to feel settled with the sense that we have been gone from our old home, friends, and the mountains of Colorado for many moons.  Much about my daily life has changed, yet much remains the same.  I am looking forward to finding some space in my life to write and create once again.

In many ways, working on this issue of the magazine has helped me to begin to find some rhythm in my days. Now that there are three of us on staff, we are working through learning how to be accountable and consistent with the work that each of us needs to do.  It is a healthy process and I feel that it has led to us having a more polished magazine, not to mention that we are very much ahead of where we have been in the past on our timeline.   

Below is a small preview of some of the projects that will be found in the magazine, which launches on Wednesday, September 1st.  I hope to see you all there.  






17 May 2010

A Shy Hello

When Heather interviewed me for her blog two months ago, she asked me about this blog.  I told her that this space in some ways serves as a placeholder for my future creative endeavors.  I've been thinking about this a lot lately, and I don't want to lose this part of myself.

The last few months have brought about so much change.  There has been a lot of uncertainty, but I think we will emerge stronger as a family and as individuals.  We've found a home in Kansas City, and if everything goes as planned we will be moving there in about a month's time.  It is hard to express how many times we have run through lists of the benefits and the drawbacks of this move.  If we were to put the list on paper, we come up with so many variables...and find that this element can't really be compared to that one.  You can't compare a handful of good friends in one state to a handful of friends in the other and decide that one group is better than the other.

Some things are easier to weigh...I'd take the moderate weather and heavy snowfalls here over the humid hot summers, tornadoes, and ice storms of Missouri any day.  I'd take our natural foods stores here over the shelves of jarred gravy there.  (No, seriously, the grocery store near my parents has about 10 different brands of gravy in jars.)  Of course there is nothing in Missouri that compares to the Rocky Mountains out our front door.  But the one thing Colorado doesn't have?  Grandparents.  Aunts, uncles, and cousins.  I think back to the wonderful memories I have from childhood, surrounded by the love of my extended family.  I think that Jesse and I both want to give that gift to our own children.

Thus our decision is made.  I am sad to leave the home in which our children were born.  The gardens we labored over.  The mountains out the front door.  And of course, the friends with whom we are so connected.  But this journey, for now, is the right one.  I'm working hard to embrace it.

I'd like to come back here and use this space for a different purpose, for a little while.  It's always been more of an outlet for my craft.  And craft?  It's not happening much right now.  Unless you count applying packing tape to boxes.  I think that's been the thing holding me back from writing.  My own limitations.  So pardon the diversion.  Hopefully I can find the regularly scheduled programming again soon.

I'm going to start a new little list up there in the corner to share some things I'm charmed by right now.  Things you might be inspired to actually use.  (Me, I'm just looking, and bookmarking for the future.)